To transform a word I need to first look at the backchat, and my self definition relating to the word which in this case is:
"I don't know how to lead/create- meaning I am unsure of myself as a leader/creator because I have not developed that AS a skill of self expression".
I feel unsure/uncertain of myself as a leader/creator because my starting point in relation to the word creativity is that of the collection of ideas by others- thus I am looking at others as a starting point which is external- thus I am not in self expression because then my starting point would be internal. All it takes is shifting the perspective/starting point from external to internal.
Self expression is not a skill, it is a movement of self in any given moment- thus to be creative as self expression requires movement in a specific direction within the expression of that direction in that specific moment. Which makes creativity an action, a collection/gathering of what is here as the foundation to be explored along with a chosen direction of how to place what has been collected/gathered to be practically applied in the chosen direction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see creativity from an external point of view where I attempted to collect ideas but in the process ended up confusing myself within all the ideas I was viewing because I had not considered the foundation of what I was looking to express as the collection of the ideas.
Within that I commit myself to assist and support myself to when I experience uncertainty towards creativity to stop and look at my starting point and shift my perspective from external to internal, within that living the word creativity into the external through self expression in the physical.
As starters I will practically apply this within the lesson plans I write for my work- where I will spend a little more time on exploring how I can connect the themes with activities/books that make connections/opportunities for the students to learn the objectives at hand. I will also practically apply myself with exploring options for lesson integration (as what I have learned in my class at school for my ELL certificate) to set up the environment for student's learning. So during my time off I will look at themes/units and I will explore ways to create them/align them towards lesson/subject integration.
I realize that there is never anything 100% original but rather the combination of different ways to organize what is already here available for us to use.