Thursday, November 30, 2017

Day 198- When Anger Gets the Best of Me

I rarely get really angry or pissed off. Most times I will be upset about something, or even sad. However, certain times anger can get the best of me and then it feels like my head will explode and I literally experience this blockage, like a malfunctioning computer that throws swear words in the most random manner that makes no sense- other than having no other words to express this burst of energy.

A usual trigger to such anger is feeling something is not being done a fair manner to me. In those moments not considering everything in its totality but only that which impacts me directly. That moment when something has not gone as planned and it is everyone else's fault.  In that moment of feeling unjust where I allow anger to get the best of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let the emotion of anger run through my body and in that allowing it to hurt me on a mental and physical level.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel like I have been treated unfairly because something did not go the way I had planned it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be selfish in a way because I am not considering the other person when I am in the anger energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to say hurtful things to another because I have allowed the anger to direct my words where I aim to say something hurtful to the other person so that I can feel better for that moment of lashing out.